Someone will love you

I know I did. 

You asked me once "how much?"

I said "from here...."

And I can't hate you

No matter how much I want to

Baby isn't that what love does 

Makes us want what hurts us?

But I can't want you anymore

This deja vu of loving you 

Has turned my heart into a civil war 

And I have given you too much of me to be half loved by a boy who couldn't 

Love me enough

 

Tell everyone I was the warmest place you knew til you turned me cold

I was a steady heart to hold

But then it broke

I should have known you'd go

You always do

Like "love" is always almost "lose"

 

You take a hammer to my porcelain heart 

Shattered, but still enough to piece me back again

How dare you have the nerve to kiss the 

Bullet holes inside my chest 

While the gun is still smoking in your hands 

 

But I can't want you anymore

Your complacency

Your loving me

I'm sick and tired of this back and forth

We had some good times didn't we? 

Was it enough to make it worth it? 

Not enough to make it hurt less

 

Tell everyone I was the warmest place you knew til you turned me cold

I was a steady heart to hold

But then it broke

I should have known you'd go

You always do

Like "love" is always almost "lose"

 

I loved you in my room

And in Yours too

And in the back parking lot where the trucks pull through 

And you don't know

You never did 

You never will

But I do.

My 6 word story: 

"I want it to be you"

Oh god, I wanted it to be you.

 

I find myself

Overthinking, under sleeping, counting stars.. Wide awake

These constellations are just the broken pieces of my heart

I count them for you anyway.

 

Two for the times you held my hand 

In the car 

In the dark

Three for when you kissed me good morning and goodnight  

Six, for every time we fit together just right 

And one, just one, for that last goodbye 

 

Someone will love you

I know I did 

From there

"...To here"